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lady_noremon) wrote2026-02-25 02:57 am
lady_noremon) wrote2026-02-25 02:57 am
On an update I guess!
So. I have been meaning to make an entry like this for a while. I just keep putting it off.
I should start by announcing that I adopted another cat. Her name is Cassandra Polaris and she has fit in so well. She is very smart, curious, brave, and in a way it feels like my little family is complete like it hasn’t in a long time. I had dreamt for months I had a little orange girl kitten named Polly [Polaris] that was a menace. There were a lot of orange female cats/kittens around local rescues and rescues I follow too. Female orange cats are about 20% to 80% male. I had been feeling guilty about Neptune maybe being lonely/understimulated too. I had applied for another kitten but the rescue never even called the references it kept asking for in the over a week it took to let me know I was declined. But a few days later I had a dentist appointment near the Kings SPCA location. I got my mom to stop in because they had two older cats in the socialisation room still that I wanted to see. We got there and my mom called me into the first cage room. There were 3 utterly pathetic looking} kittens (an orange and white boy that hissed at me and stood at the back, a calico girl who was friendly, and an orange girl that just wanted to cuddle her sister and stare at everyone/everything). They were underweight, and had been shaved. The little orange girl especially looked rough. I asked the staff about them, and about their health, because I was so worried about them. They were a surrender from a barn and had to be shaved due to lice at intake. Now barn cats are a weakness because Minnow and Charlotte were ones. I hadn’t seen them posted on the Adoptions website either. I thought of that poor little girl all night and practically begged my mom to lend me the remaining adoption amount (the SPCA charges more due to including spay) and go get her the next morning. I had no idea what type of personality she would have but she has basically exploded into a big nice cat. I named her after Lieutenant Commander Cassandra Quinn from Stories From Sol. See my Instagram for stuff with Nicolas, Lydia, and Neptune too.
{ https://mas.to/@Lady_Noremon/116129762172776706 }
Anyway my LiveJournal Professional Package expires later today. I contacted Support to ask for another courtesy extension but haven’t heard back anything yet so no idea how that will go. I have tried to get a way to pay myself just to keep access to things like my Journal Style but living rural like I do it is arduous. If I lived in Ottawa or Toronto it would be easier. But it all is so frustrating. Even logging-in makes me so anxious because I still use the old website style, Friends Page, unlimited rice pudding, et cetera, et cetera. And with so many other stresses in my life I get avoidant on the smaller ones.
I also have the issue that 2025 especially flew by. I worked long shifts for October-November 2024, and then they didn’t pay me until December 18TH meaning I was super stressed. OBM & OBMNB were suddenly winding down new content, my smartphone utterly died on December 30TH, then I had pneumonia for 3 months. The rest of the year then felt like a blur. Things I would think had just happened, would be months prior. So many technological things got forced obsolescence or changed. We had horrible wildfires in my province during a summer of heatwave and drought. I lost track of so much time. This year so far has been better after my Christmas vacation, but there’s just been so much stress.
There is also the energy capacity aspect to most everything. I have been utterly exhausted most of the time. My stomach & inflammatory issues just keep getting worse. And the longer things go on without any word or appointment with the specialist I just get stuck in that it will never improve. There are so many shit stories in my province about health things being so bad when finally looked at that I worry that’s how it will go. I finally had the scopes and biopsies in September 2023. That’s when the big ass hernia was diagnosed, and it was too much for that specialist to deal with so he referred me to another (but still hasn’t even sent the results etc. to my doctor or such). I had a motility test for that specialist in July 2024 and have heard utterly nothing since. My family doctor has sent letters, tried to get referrals to other specialists, sent me for tests to keep an eye on things, etc. But it’s basically all we can do. The hernia, valve problems, and non-bacteria ulcers are things that have to have surgery. So instead I am nauseous most of the time, or drowsy from medication to help keep food down. I have pain either in my side, my stomach when eating, abdominal muscles, etc. It all just sucks and effects my abilities to do a lot; even things I enjoy. This combines with that I have just had no energy for so much since Minnow’s terminal diagnosis, palliative care, and death. It was months of medication schedules, appointments, anticipatory grief, the grief that she had brain damage from the initial high fever so never really herself-herself again, her just wanting to be held most of the time, the reactions from the people I live with, and just the utter drained I felt for months after. It still feels like some times that I never fully got rested again after. Especially with how much worse my health and life situations went the time since.
I mostly haven't been posting much about myself or life updates much of anywheres. Maybe some on Mastodon, rambling a bit while streaming games, and sometimes with friends on Discord. I got out of here because of a combination of the website anxiety, the weaponisation of vulnerabilities or the constant monitoring out of malice, and the energy no longer feeling worth it just for myself. It’s not like in the past where I felt like it didn’t matter if I like stopped existing or not. I have much, much better social circles now and friends that really care. It’s just the lack of capacity or benefit to talk about myself and life so much now. Hell, I haven’t even made an Instagram post yet on the car accident I was in on January 16TH even. Not so much now that I don’t think anyone cares, just the energy to expend on posting. Even the year Vlog month of February I do on YouTube has been a slog.
For things I am into I guess; I am still really into Obey Me!, and Lifeline. Both really, really helped me start to socialise and participate in fandoms again. I started writing fanfics again, and joining fan collaborations. My 5 year anniversary of first playing OBM soon and I am still utterly obsessed with the Avatar of Wrath. The past year I have been loving Stories From Sol too. I also went back to RuneScape in 2024 after almost a decade. With the tablet it is so weird to be playing it portably--Like past me would be utterly amazed to be doing so.
I have used LiveJournal for over 20 years. It has been with me through so much of my life and how I have evolved as a person. I have made so many friends and participated in so many Communities/fandoms and I still have contact with a few peeps. I have updated it with so many different ways, and locations. Everything from Voice Posts, my RAZR V3c browser, Nintendo 3DS, e-mail, MMS, and on every computer or smartphone I have owned. This is being done on my new to me tablet even using a Bluetooth keyboard. I used to be active multiple times a day and I shared so many deep things here. I am very nostalgic about it and hate the thought of losing access to those years of content from my life. I have previously imported to DreamWidth, and used Semagic and such at least. But with the upcoming changes I have heard rumours and such about I have no idea how things will go.
Anyway; I am currently most active on Mastodon I guess, or Instagram. My e-mail is also a way to reach me if you want to get in touch. I am Lady_Noremon or some variation on most things as well!
—Lady Norémon/Captain/Sarah
https://lady-noremon.livejournal.com/603558.html
I should start by announcing that I adopted another cat. Her name is Cassandra Polaris and she has fit in so well. She is very smart, curious, brave, and in a way it feels like my little family is complete like it hasn’t in a long time. I had dreamt for months I had a little orange girl kitten named Polly [Polaris] that was a menace. There were a lot of orange female cats/kittens around local rescues and rescues I follow too. Female orange cats are about 20% to 80% male. I had been feeling guilty about Neptune maybe being lonely/understimulated too. I had applied for another kitten but the rescue never even called the references it kept asking for in the over a week it took to let me know I was declined. But a few days later I had a dentist appointment near the Kings SPCA location. I got my mom to stop in because they had two older cats in the socialisation room still that I wanted to see. We got there and my mom called me into the first cage room. There were 3 utterly pathetic looking} kittens (an orange and white boy that hissed at me and stood at the back, a calico girl who was friendly, and an orange girl that just wanted to cuddle her sister and stare at everyone/everything). They were underweight, and had been shaved. The little orange girl especially looked rough. I asked the staff about them, and about their health, because I was so worried about them. They were a surrender from a barn and had to be shaved due to lice at intake. Now barn cats are a weakness because Minnow and Charlotte were ones. I hadn’t seen them posted on the Adoptions website either. I thought of that poor little girl all night and practically begged my mom to lend me the remaining adoption amount (the SPCA charges more due to including spay) and go get her the next morning. I had no idea what type of personality she would have but she has basically exploded into a big nice cat. I named her after Lieutenant Commander Cassandra Quinn from Stories From Sol. See my Instagram for stuff with Nicolas, Lydia, and Neptune too.
{ https://mas.to/@Lady_Noremon/116129762172776706 }
Anyway my LiveJournal Professional Package expires later today. I contacted Support to ask for another courtesy extension but haven’t heard back anything yet so no idea how that will go. I have tried to get a way to pay myself just to keep access to things like my Journal Style but living rural like I do it is arduous. If I lived in Ottawa or Toronto it would be easier. But it all is so frustrating. Even logging-in makes me so anxious because I still use the old website style, Friends Page, unlimited rice pudding, et cetera, et cetera. And with so many other stresses in my life I get avoidant on the smaller ones.
I also have the issue that 2025 especially flew by. I worked long shifts for October-November 2024, and then they didn’t pay me until December 18TH meaning I was super stressed. OBM & OBMNB were suddenly winding down new content, my smartphone utterly died on December 30TH, then I had pneumonia for 3 months. The rest of the year then felt like a blur. Things I would think had just happened, would be months prior. So many technological things got forced obsolescence or changed. We had horrible wildfires in my province during a summer of heatwave and drought. I lost track of so much time. This year so far has been better after my Christmas vacation, but there’s just been so much stress.
There is also the energy capacity aspect to most everything. I have been utterly exhausted most of the time. My stomach & inflammatory issues just keep getting worse. And the longer things go on without any word or appointment with the specialist I just get stuck in that it will never improve. There are so many shit stories in my province about health things being so bad when finally looked at that I worry that’s how it will go. I finally had the scopes and biopsies in September 2023. That’s when the big ass hernia was diagnosed, and it was too much for that specialist to deal with so he referred me to another (but still hasn’t even sent the results etc. to my doctor or such). I had a motility test for that specialist in July 2024 and have heard utterly nothing since. My family doctor has sent letters, tried to get referrals to other specialists, sent me for tests to keep an eye on things, etc. But it’s basically all we can do. The hernia, valve problems, and non-bacteria ulcers are things that have to have surgery. So instead I am nauseous most of the time, or drowsy from medication to help keep food down. I have pain either in my side, my stomach when eating, abdominal muscles, etc. It all just sucks and effects my abilities to do a lot; even things I enjoy. This combines with that I have just had no energy for so much since Minnow’s terminal diagnosis, palliative care, and death. It was months of medication schedules, appointments, anticipatory grief, the grief that she had brain damage from the initial high fever so never really herself-herself again, her just wanting to be held most of the time, the reactions from the people I live with, and just the utter drained I felt for months after. It still feels like some times that I never fully got rested again after. Especially with how much worse my health and life situations went the time since.
I mostly haven't been posting much about myself or life updates much of anywheres. Maybe some on Mastodon, rambling a bit while streaming games, and sometimes with friends on Discord. I got out of here because of a combination of the website anxiety, the weaponisation of vulnerabilities or the constant monitoring out of malice, and the energy no longer feeling worth it just for myself. It’s not like in the past where I felt like it didn’t matter if I like stopped existing or not. I have much, much better social circles now and friends that really care. It’s just the lack of capacity or benefit to talk about myself and life so much now. Hell, I haven’t even made an Instagram post yet on the car accident I was in on January 16TH even. Not so much now that I don’t think anyone cares, just the energy to expend on posting. Even the year Vlog month of February I do on YouTube has been a slog.
For things I am into I guess; I am still really into Obey Me!, and Lifeline. Both really, really helped me start to socialise and participate in fandoms again. I started writing fanfics again, and joining fan collaborations. My 5 year anniversary of first playing OBM soon and I am still utterly obsessed with the Avatar of Wrath. The past year I have been loving Stories From Sol too. I also went back to RuneScape in 2024 after almost a decade. With the tablet it is so weird to be playing it portably--Like past me would be utterly amazed to be doing so.
I have used LiveJournal for over 20 years. It has been with me through so much of my life and how I have evolved as a person. I have made so many friends and participated in so many Communities/fandoms and I still have contact with a few peeps. I have updated it with so many different ways, and locations. Everything from Voice Posts, my RAZR V3c browser, Nintendo 3DS, e-mail, MMS, and on every computer or smartphone I have owned. This is being done on my new to me tablet even using a Bluetooth keyboard. I used to be active multiple times a day and I shared so many deep things here. I am very nostalgic about it and hate the thought of losing access to those years of content from my life. I have previously imported to DreamWidth, and used Semagic and such at least. But with the upcoming changes I have heard rumours and such about I have no idea how things will go.
Anyway; I am currently most active on Mastodon I guess, or Instagram. My e-mail is also a way to reach me if you want to get in touch. I am Lady_Noremon or some variation on most things as well!
—Lady Norémon/Captain/Sarah
https://lady-noremon.livejournal.com/603558.html