I couldnt think of a better word at the time. I just mean I that I took you and Shampoo jumping with I should have known they were expensive, to mean that I thought otherwise and that wasnt what I meant at all but it still triggered my "I am crap"-itis.

I will have money for food and spending, but Im still now in a pinch for transportation and rooming. I will be getting 2 support payments but not until the end of June and 2nd week of July. Hence is why my goal is only $400(now $250) so I can cover my reservations and yes Im going to help with the hotel, it is just that all this money-jazz is very stressful. I am sorry Kun.