So Amanda-pants & Trev-poo just left [fox_avenger & xiuuxiu ]. I was getting rather mad at his sister&friends, because they kept bailing on them/wating a ridiculas ammount to drive like 11/2 hours. So now they are all gone to Bridgewater, and I am again alone.
Yeah I am happy to have been promised contact, and excitedly told to come visit in BC [which I might do in 2010, as 2009 is mah PortCon-sexy trip]; because it eased my mind a bit. I am not as uncertain about shit now.
When I pretty much lost contact with Trev, I thought I had been dropped. I at first used to try Amanda's number, but after a few months I didn't know if he was still staying with her so I started trying his cell-phone. I e-mailed, I sent MSN offline messages, I txted, and I Skyped. I got 1 MSN message asking for my phone number/address & 2 txts in over 7 months. I was really worried/upset and it caused a few panic attacks [usually they happen (and I've only been having them as of late last year) when I have a dream or remember something, which causes everything to come-back and the whole fear and shit kicks in. I can't breath, and everything goes tight. I cry a lot too. When I first started having them I was scared because I didn't know what to do. Now I usually maul Minnow then go play RuneScape >.>]. I didn't know if he was alright or what. Or if he even wanted to talk to me. Now I feel hearted :3
So I hope that we can work-on mending things more when he gets back, and stay in contact more/better. I am very happy to have met awesome Amanda too~♥
I am hoping to get a job soon and see about what the hell I'm going to do for school next semester/term. I will need to start paying-off my ass student loan too. First I need to pay Telus fully, and get my Lestat outfit commission/get like $120 for my passport.
This is a picture Trev drew me of D20 Lylat Zinnian :3
<------he likes to always draw Zinn wearing fishnet!arm-warmers with belt-things...
So I am content, and I didn't cry 'till after they left ^^ now I am going to play a tad of RuneScape, then probably go to bed as I am tired :O
I am glad I have a appointment at Valley Chiropractic Services tomaro D: I am still stiff from Laser Tag.
Trevor and his friend Amanda, decided to come to Nova Scotia kinda spurr of the moment. They tried my house early in the morning today, but I was not up [I was up late because of a panic attack, and was planning-on sleeping-in till noon-ish], so they asked around town if I still lived at June's. Well June met this woman who asked if Sarah was still in town, and June was like tell him to come back. So June & Wendy ran in, made me get-up and get dressed because some people were coming to visit. Now they were REALLLLLLLY excited, and I was like "who the hell could it be?" When Wendy mentioned a "good friend" I was like "It could be ether Trevor or Armie, because I think I'd have to actually be dead before Matt bothered. Armie has no reason to visit, so it must be Trev. He told me he was sending a parcel, and it should arrive 'around the 19th."
So Trevor & his awesome friend Amanda hung-out today, and a bit with Shannon Maidens. We went to the pub, and even went and sat on the old train bridge. I had fun but now I'm pretty tired with a headache.
They are staying in our trailer for awhile-either a few days to a week-before they leave for Bridgewater and then Halifax. I feel kind of bad I have nothing much to offer them, but it was a suprise and I was not prepared D:
I missed the wank. I missed him so damn much. I wish Matt wasn't such a bastard though [memories about the times we spent together as a group still upset me, and thus I can't seem to enjoy this visit as much as I would like. (Actually that was the reason for my panic attack last night...)].
Got it right with Treovr again! [sure it will take awhile till it is 100% again (maybe 340%? was how it was before...) but still!]
I made Matt worry so bad though because of how depressed I have been. I feel like a ass for making him shake like a dildo over me. I wish I didn't have to talk about my problems with him as he has his own but I can't help it sometimes.
I DID NOT FINISH MY ESSAY D:
I was busy with personal reasons! [talking to my best friend whom I thought I had lost, and letting Matts know that I was not 'suicide' depressed. I was just self-loathing & guilty depressed with a smidge of futility there aswell]
Because of this I am going to get 20% off of it as I won't be home tomorrow Night ;3 [this is also for a fun personal reason]
I got a new plant! His name is Frederick and he is a white Spathiphyllum (like a lily mixed with a foilage house-plant)! I SHALL type up his 'back-story' later-on :3
I heart him! [and he cost me over $20 if you include the pot & potting soil I had to get to transplant him]
Oh! And techinically he is a school supply as I drew Hibiki several times for school :3
"Spathiphyllum is mildly toxic to humans and animals when ingested." Good to know that I shouldn't be tempted to eat him >;P
Oh and I read Vol.#06 of "Loveless" today while I ate my eggs&bacon&ketchup&toast&jam :3 and a few pages of chapter#01 of Vol#07...thank-you Armadei for rekindling my Kio love :P [I still say we have a lot in common...we both like suckers, are fine art students, and are occasional perverts...oh and the glasses XDDD]
Now I am off to bed!!!!!!!
[I love sex-pot, Cheeseboy & Armie; you guys really♥ helped me this weekend!!!!]